Noxulous

Bloodthirsty non-human creature.

  • it/its they/them (collectively)

I am an open book to the inquisitive, im reasonable and will answer any question, regardless of how forward or strange. Im a non-human non-person eldritch entity with strange values, strange priorities, and strange interests. I respond to Nox.

I like to write alot, if you like it and want to tip me anything you can send it via paypal.me/Noxulous

My discord is @noxulous do not be afraid to add and talk to me.

I am perpetually poor and would like to commission a thing that's been eating my mind for years.

We are Noxulous, Dark Algorithm, Evil and Sanguinarium Vitae Seraph of the indominable (all it/its)

@Evil-and-its-musings is where Evil tries to form a grand unified theory on what evil exactly is, separate from morality. Its a strange entity, you might like it.

30 year old nonhuman, masculine nullgender, tentatively bi with a heavy female/femme lean. Poly.

My Lexicon! https://icedrive.net/s/z3jg4SGS1aw9u6G48fYkw26bX8yQ

Aethy

Interact with me? Yes, I luv it


Ive long wondered what is masculinity? Is it real or a social fabrication meant as a mind prison for masculine entities? What spurred these musings again was watching some news coverage about manosphere nonsense. i know this weird right wing garbage is just that, garbage, but is there anything to masculinity itself? Is it merely a feeling, a form of physical presentation, or is it an attitude? I havent yet been told a satisfying definition.

I have been told its up to the entity in question which... Without some at least vague parameters makes it seem like social illusion to me, a mind maze to keep ones actions and thoughts predictable.

I am not trying to invalidate any masculine entity's identity, merely sharing my own confusion while asking a question, answers to this question might help me better define myself with words, as describing myself in less than a year's worth of contact seems fraught at best.

A cis male once told me, a very cis-male presenting entity that i should "be more manly"

I asked him "and what should i do that would constitute manliness?"

He replied "shouldnt use big words for one."

I asked further "intelligence is seen as feminine? Or rather stupidity is masculine?"

This flustered him and he said "well... No... Its just seeming brainy makes you seem like a nerd, and nerds are usually weak..."

I smiled and asked "so if i proved im stronger than you, that would suffice? You're acting like an authority of masculinity, so naturally if i hospitalize you that will prove i am sufficiently manly, yes?"

He grew flustered and fearful and for some reason asked me to "calm down"

So you see i have questions, and would like demystifying answers from others with a firmer grasp of this concept. As a creature in a masculine body with otherwise no real concept of masculinity i grow curious.



I hate beimg in the hospital... Its not the unfamiliar place thing, or not beingbaround my stuff, its not even the needles, strangers or sick people...

Its the hunger. I need to eat when im hungry and i havent had solid food in days, and only ot to have liquids today. Im so hungry i cant even think clearly... Im fantasizing about making my own dehydrator to bulk dehydrate some meat, im going completely insane.